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Yennefer of Vengerberg ([personal profile] bottle) wrote2030-03-11 09:26 pm

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[personal profile] bardicdisaster 2022-05-01 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
[Jaskier laughs sarcastically, as though Yennefer has told a joke only she would find funny because it was meant to denigrate the listener. The accusation sits more or less on the same level as that, in any case.]

I would much sooner cut both my hands off before I would ever desire to hold your hand again, witch. The only reason I didn't complain about having my hand trapped in that unsightly and disproportionate paw of yours is that I was delirious. In case you hadn't noticed, I hadn't slept properly for quite some time. Never mind everything those pills and injections did to me.

[Jaskier has never been particularly good at masking discomfort of any sort. In fact, one could make the argument he rarely ever bothers with masking it given that he tends to verbalize it loudly and immediately upon its presence. But, in general, Jaskier has never been particularly well-versed in deceit. Unlike Yennefer who can feel one thing and present the exact opposite with no evidence of any falsehood, Jaskier's facades always crumble immediately. It's what leads him to be so reliant upon distraction and misdirection rather than a direct lie.]

[And so, it's likely abundantly obvious that the mere mention of it all brings forth a dark cloud for Jaskier. His eyes dart away from Yennefer, glancing over at an unimportant spot on the nearby wall. His voice is even and strong, but it still fades just a touch by the end. The pad of one of his thumbs traces a brief circle over his fingertips. Jaskier opens his mouth to say something else, but then he thinks better of it. She asked where he was a while ago, and he never gave her an answer. It's not so much that the moment has completely passed since he can always return to it, but it feels a little too vulnerable a thing to admit to Yennefer. To anyone really, but especially to Yennefer. Even if she perhaps already knows that Jaskier just needed some time and that's why he hasn't been around like he was before.]

[So, instead, his expression brightens quickly—the fidgeting and discomfort only lasts for a second or two as he brushes aside any effect his time in the hospital has had on him—and he says instead,]


I know you're used to every man you come across losing what little sense he might possess in your presence, but I happen to be immune. I only took your hand out of necessity. So, better luck with someone else, Yennefer.
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[personal profile] bardicdisaster 2022-05-02 01:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[Jaskier opens his mouth to say something, but he doesn't have an immediate answer prepared. Yennefer has never questioned him before. Sure, she's made little remarks about his gifts off and on, always attempting to get him to admit they were gifts. He's always had something to say for that even if it didn't come to him immediately. But she's never questioned why Jaskier was ever around. He closes his mouth, pursing his lips because he has nothing. There's really not even a vaguely convincing excuse he could give as he can with all his gifts. Still, he tries for a moment or two longer because the excuses have always been to her benefit. They avoid any acknowledgment of the toll this entire thing with Mammon might have taken on her. They don't put her in a position where she needs to contend with a friendship she hasn't really experienced in the way Jaskier has for herself yet. But he comes up completely dry for this one.]

Well, largely because of the things I can't tell you, [he admits a little easier than he expected to. The next part is a little more challenging because he can't think of a way to phrase it that isn't walking straight into any implication that Yennefer needs any sort of help. He tries his best to minimize it all the same.] And I know, I know, you don't need anyone but yourself and blah, blah, blah. That's fine. I'm not doubting that you can take care of yourself or that I'm the last person you would ever need if you ever needed anybody.

[He waves a dismissive hand as though pre-empting any of her protests or arguments for what he's about to say next.]

But none of that changes the fact I still haven't seen or spoken with you since the hospital. So... [Jaskier nods a little.] Yes. I was willing to wait quite a while to see you because even if I reasonably know you're fine, regardless of your reasons for it, you put yourself at great risk.

[He shrugs a shoulder then.]

And I still needed to see you were alright for myself. [Jaskier's lips curve into a slight smile that never quite reflects in his eyes because he's beginning to brace himself. He doesn't anticipate any amount of preamble negating any potential offense Yennefer could take and he fully anticipates her lashing out. The small amount of humor he tries to inject into it is his attempt at trying to distract from what feels like the impending sting when she strikes.] If that makes you rethink the whole magpie thing and change it to a mother hen, then so be it. I happily accept that and whatever other grief you wish to give me for giving a shit.

[He fully braces himself then by trying to pre-empt her rejection.]

That being said, not that you need my permission, but if you'd truly like me to fuck off, just say the word.

[Jaskier should perhaps conclude by saying that nothing could possibly bring him greater pleasure than being told to leave and not have to contend with her any longer than is strictly necessary. He doesn't though. Because even if it is Yennefer and even if she's not entirely as she was the last time he saw her in their world, it hardly matters. Selfishly, he's felt a modicum of usefulness here, tending to Yennefer's needs in a way he doesn't think anyone else has. Or, at the very least, he can't see Geralt doing any of this because he hasn't the first clue how. And Tech? As far as Jaskier can tell, Tech has wisely kept their relationship strictly businesslike in its presentation. And not to say that Yennefer doesn't have other people here working with her on this problem aside from Geralt and Tech, but would she allow them to do this? So, to some extent, it would kill Jaskier a little to hear from even Yennefer that he's unwanted or more trouble than he's worth.]

[And perhaps more selfishly, now that he's seen even so much as a glimpse of the person Yennefer can be beneath everything he finds contemptible about her, he doesn't want to give up on her either. As fucked up as it probably is that he would ever feel this way about someone who once threatened his life, he doesn't want Yennefer to feel alone either and have that goodness within her snuffed out before it's had a chance to truly blossom.]
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[personal profile] bardicdisaster 2022-05-04 06:23 am (UTC)(link)
[Backhanded or not, it still counts as a compliment coming from Yennefer. Or, at least, Jaskier is willing to accept it as one. In any case, he doesn't look altogether displeased or offended when she doesn't indicate what "a few" actually translated to in terms of number.]

[Which also leads him to be a little less convinced when she says she will be fine. No, no, he meant what he said. He knows Yennefer is more than capable of taking matters into her own hands and finding her way to coming out on top. But how bad will it get before she does? How much of that might she end up self-inflicting? Jaskier's uncertain of the answer to either question and has to make a concerted effort not to dwell on it.]

[He scoffs a little.]


You got your ale. Don't get greedy. [He shakes his head, looking off to the side, muttering to himself,] Does something kind and expects a bloody feast to be held in her honor. Ridiculous...

[Jaskier looks at Yennefer again.]

Alright, one more thing, [he says, holding up a finger to indicate that she's only receiving one final gift today.] But that's all you get because you, madam, are becoming spoiled and entitled. More so than usual.

[And perhaps in the most magpie of potential gifts that Jaskier could possibly give Yennefer, he produces a jasper stone that's a little smaller than a coin and offers it to her.]

You witches are always messing about with plants and rocks, yeah?

[Jaskier still remembers what Yennefer said about jasper, but he feigns ignorance of it now. Maybe she'll suspect he knows. Maybe she won't. Either way, Jaskier intends to play it off entirely as he saw a smooth and pretty rock, and blindly assumed she might have use of it somehow all the while secretly hoping that it might serve as a reminder. Because Yennefer's rage is powerful and terrifyingly so. But there is more to her and her power than all of that. Something that will see her through this incomplete spell. Something Jaskier did not just witness but felt for himself as he held so tightly to her hand throughout the hospital.]

[She might not want to talk about it and that's... Well, it's not really fine, but Jaskier understands better than Yennefer perhaps understands or realizes her reservations for speaking of it. But even if she never speaks of it again, Jaskier is determined she never forgets it.]
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[personal profile] bardicdisaster 2022-05-06 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, does it? [Most of the time when Jaskier lies, it's much like a child pretending they haven't devoured all the sweets while the evidence is still plainly there on their face. But with this, Jaskier is actually able to pass it off as though this is brand new information as he offers a little shrug.] I just thought it was a nice rock.

But all the better if you have some sort of use for it.
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[personal profile] bardicdisaster 2022-05-06 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
Wh... What? No. That's— I didn't—

[Jaskier closes his mouth and ceases his stammering, frowning a little. Because he technically did just say that even if that's absolutely not true. But he can't exactly defend himself without letting it slip that he already knew what active jasper was for! Pursing his lips, Jaskier bobs his head a little as he tries to come up with literally anything else for a defense.]

Shut up...

[1 - Yennefer, 0 - Jaskier.]
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[personal profile] bardicdisaster 2022-05-13 01:42 am (UTC)(link)
[His discomfort at my dear magpie is both palpable and quite visible as he does very little to control his expression as he shudders a little. Even the Yennefer he knows back home wouldn't likely be so prone to such a blatantly affectionate name as that! It's unnerving.]

Although I shall not be testing that theory of yours, I believe the only soft thing here is you. Saving me, admitting you don't mind me all that much, and now affectionate pet names? [He starts the short walk to his own suite door, turning to still face Yennefer as he passes her.] Yennefer, you keep this up, people are going to start getting the wrong idea about us and think we're friends. I know it would be a great boon to you for such an association, but I'm afraid my fragile reputation here couldn't possibly weather it.
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[personal profile] bardicdisaster 2022-05-15 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, see, you've never had to meet you before. So... [Jaskier makes a face of mock pity.] But don't you worry, witch. I gain enough devoted fans, I might someday acknowledge you around others besides Geralt.
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[personal profile] bardicdisaster 2022-05-15 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, believe me, [Jaskier says with a crooked grin.] I am well-aware of all their efforts to shut me up.

[He winks at her, letting that be that rather than taking another potshot at her since he imagines it will be just as effective, and turns back around to let himself into his own suite.]